A Different Kind of Faith: Finding God Beyond Religion
I never thought I’d openly talk about God—let alone embrace the idea. For years, I rejected the very concept. But the God I was taught to fear is not the God I have come to know. Now, this deeper connection is at the heart of my healing and creativity.
Limitless Love: A Glimpse into the Divine
Talking about God has never been easy for me. I’ve wrestled with what it means, how to speak about it, and how to make sense of my beliefs. I know that for many, the idea of God can feel complicated or even painful. I get it—I used to feel that way too. But over time, I found my own way back. And I want to share that journey with you.
Why Do I Need This Higher Power?
Anxiety, grief, and anger used to overwhelm me. If I’m honest, they still do at times, but not like before.
I tried to carry it all alone, convinced I didn’t need help.
When I lost my mom, the weight became unbearable. That’s when I started searching for something greater than myself—something loving, compassionate, and wise.
I found that presence in my creative process—how my Soul Drawings came to be. When I sit down to create, I connect to something beyond myself. Some call it intuition, Spirit, or divine guidance. For me, it’s God—not the God I was raised with, but a presence beyond rules, beyond judgment, beyond human limitations.
Have you ever felt like you had to carry everything on your own? What helped you keep going?
Why I Stopped My Connection with God
When I realized I was gay, I believed God didn’t love me.
I was taught that being gay was a sin too great—even for God to forgive.
The church’s teachings made me feel broken and unworthy.
So, I walked away. Not just from religion, but from God altogether.
For years, I rejected anything spiritual. I told myself I didn’t need it. But the absence of that connection left a void—one I didn’t even realize was there until I started searching for healing.
A Different View of God
Even as a child, I questioned the version of God I was taught.
I couldn’t accept a God who punished people for questioning, thinking, or being different.
I longed for something deeper—beyond rigid doctrine.
Now, I see God everywhere:
In the trees
The ocean
The people I love
Even in myself
God isn’t a being watching from above, keeping score of my sins. God is love—pure, infinite, and all-encompassing—the fabric of life itself. Not just for some, but for everyone.
What does God—or whatever name you use—mean to you? Have you ever questioned what you were taught?
What This Means for My Work
I share this because you’ll see me talk about God from time to time. Not in a preachy way, and certainly not in a way that excludes anyone. But God is part of my journey—woven into my art, writing, and my healing. That’s why I wrote—Hi Mom, I love you—my story of self-acceptance and forgiveness, what it really looks like. If my journey resonates with you, I invite you to check it out.
If the word God doesn’t resonate with you, that’s okay.
Call it the Universe, Source, Spirit, or Love—what matters is the connection, not the label.
God isn’t confined to books or buildings. Not to rules, not to rituals. God is in all things, including you. If anyone ever made your feel unworthy of the Divine’s love, hear me now:
You are loved. Exactly as you are. No exceptions.
Wherever you are on your journey, know that love is always there for you. Always.
